How I Found Livingstone Travels, Adventures And Discoveries In Central Africa Including Four Months Residence With Dr. Livingstone By Sir Henry M. Stanley
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All were asleep in the tembe
but myself, and an unutterable loneliness came on me as I reflected
on my position, and my intentions, and felt the utter lack of
sympathy with me in all around.
It requires more nerve than I
possess, to dispel all the dark presentiments that come upon the
mind. But probably what I call presentiments are simply the
impress on the mind of the warnings which these false-hearted Arabs
have repeated so often. This melancholy and loneliness I feel,
may probably have their origin from the same cause. The single
candle, which barely lights up the dark shade that fills the
corners of my room, is but a poor incentive to cheerfulness.
I feel as though I were imprisoned between stone walls. But why
should I feel as if baited by these stupid, slow-witted Arabs and
their warnings and croakings? I fancy a suspicion haunts my
mind, as I write, that there lies some motive behind all this.
I wonder if these Arabs tell me all these things to keep me here,
in the hope that I might be induced another time to assist them
in their war with Mirambo! If they think so, they are much
mistaken, for I have taken a solemn, enduring oath, an oath to be
kept while the least hope of life remains in me, not to be tempted
to break the resolution I have formed, never to give up the search,
until I find Livingstone alive, or find his dead body; and never
to return home without the strongest possible proofs that he is
alive, or that he is dead.
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